Please bless our friendship

Dear St. Jude, please continue to bless my friendship with M. I’ve been so depressed for more than a week now not knowing what went wrong between me and my friend. I was totally caught off guard for him to cut me off his life. Or maybe I am jumping to conclusions but how come it lasted this long that I haven’t heard from him. I am clueless and shocked what happened. Our last conversation was happy and I don’t know what went wrong why he suddenly disappeared on me. I really thought everything was doing good between us. We were happy from our last conversation and he just disappeared from me without a warning. It hurts so much because he knows that I will get really sad when this happens but he did it to me on purpose. And still haven’t reached out to me. I don’t know what i said or what i did wrong. I’m trying hard here not to think negative but it’s not helping me move on. I’ve always been here waiting to hear from him but i don’t know if I’m waiting for nothing. It would be hard for me to trust him again and would always think that he will disappear on me again, so I am asking for your blessing in our friendship. That our friendship will remain strong, built with loyalty, respect, care, understanding, and consistency. I don’t know if this is also God’s will. All I can do is pray hoping that my prayers are also the will of God. I just want us to be happy always and not complicate things. I pray that he is safe and healthy and that he is out of danger and trouble. I’m sure he has his reasons why he did this, and all I can do is accept that again and respect his boundaries. He probably couldn’t tell me any bad things anymore that’s why he just cut me off completely. I don’t know. Either way I know it will hurt. I really thought we are building a healthy friendship but he broke my heart into pieces for not caring about me. I’m fervently praying for my feelings to go away because I am hurt once again. He dumped me once and he did it to me once again. How many times will it have to hurt. Please remove these hurtful feelings. I don’t know what to do anymore. I waited for him but he never returned and it’s hurting me. I’ve always tried to see the good in him and put him on a pedestal. I really don’t know why this happened. Please help me with my feelings because I am very hurt right now. Please take away all the pain I am feeling and make me stronger than this. Take the pain away very soon please. Please give me clarity why this happened. I hope I didn’t put him in trouble. I hope we can still be genuine friends that we don’t have to worry about other people around us who will not approve our friendship. I hope my prayers are with good intentions. God you can see right through me. You can see right through M what’s going on in his mind and heart. Please help me with these feelings that I have. I’m in deep sadness because I don’t know what I did wrong. Amen.