St.Jude I am sorry that I never prayed enough to help my mom. Now there is no point to pray I guess. I have to deal with all of this alone. Impossible cases are impossible to solve I guess. Or miracles elude unworthy people like me. I really prayed for my mom not to have cancer. Now we must face the fact that we can only rely on ourselves. I really thought she of all people was worthy of a miracle of healing…