Dear St Jude. I received bad news today about my recent checkup and need a support system to share this with but i have no one. I feel safe here somehow to share what is in my heart. My routine pap showed abnormal and I have HPV. This whole thing is new to me and is totally putting so much stress in me. I can’t even tell this to my mom as she will be so stressed about this and i feel ashamed to tell her so. I was only able to had contact with a man right after marriage and have never had multiple partners to get this. My husband is so stressed about this too and feels so bad that he gave this to me. I can’t help but got angry at him for giving this to me. Please heal my body from this virus please and I fervently pray it doesn’t get worse as time passes by. Please heal it completely and never to come back in my body. Please do not let me have cancers please. I really don’t know what to do. I’m praying for strength in my faith that I can fight all the temptations of doubts, fear, and anxiety. Please calm my heart and mind. Please remind me every day to trust God that He will heal my body. Please remind me that God will only want what’s best for me and will never leave my side. I just want to be healthy and safe and to live longer for my children and family. I hope this is not too much to ask and hope this is also God’s plan for my life. Please hear my prayers as I really feel so down right now. Amen.